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My Name is Arlyn. I Born in Bolivar, Venezuela. My birthday is the 28th of June.. My favorite color is black. I have dreams and ambitions. I wish to do something with my life, something great that everyone i once knew will be jealous of. High school is over rated, as is drama. Soon i will be away from that all though; give me a 2 years. I express my feelings through writing. It's the only way that i know of expressing what I feel completely. I live for tomorrow and I think to far ahead in to the future, it keeps me level headed and makes me feel secure and safe,  I worry alot about stupid small things,  I think more about every small detail in the world than people know about. Some people say everything happens for a reason... but I have to disagree, Things just happen. You can't take it back; and sometimes its nearly impossible to make it better. I don't care about your critisism; your words are useless to me. I dont know who I am yet, but I am the only person who can help me get there. I do not need any more help then what i already have. I learned at a young age that you must respect people from all races and orientations. I am very young; but i know a lot for my age i guess. I make mistakes as does everyone

I hate who i have turned myself into. However, iam to afraid to change me... because i don't know who i would be without all my mistakes. I pray one day ill wake up and be someone else. Someone in a new body, and a new life. I miss how everything used to be. When people said that they cared and ment it. When everyone gave a shit about where they were going in life and where i wasnt the only one left to worry about everone elses problems. I don't show or express my feelings out loud. I keep them in and bottle them.. I don't understand why some people can't see how often it is when iam the only one left to pick up all the pieces. i want to change a life, but im too lost to even change my own. Only i can fix me. Its not easy. I want to be strong enough to change myself on my own for once without worry about someone else. I want my life back before i was so hurt… I have been intentionally hurt by people i loved the most. I guess that is life though. You live and learn... and then one day we will all just DIEEE!!! . At least then ill be in a better place then here. Everyone is caught up in "now" when they can't even think about later... or even the mistakes they have made in the past. I don't know about anything anymore. but... im not giving up that easy.

You dont think about how the little decisions you make can change your future.. Every breath that you take from that moment on is not going to feel the same. It's the point in your life when reality hits and something else takes over your heart, mind, body and soul. I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT MEE!!  THINK WATHEVER YOU WANT;. It's in those few seconds that you feel the little girl leave you and the woman takes over. You realize this is who you are going to be, nothing will ever be the same. It's your life. no one can take that away.  Now stupids things dont kill me can only make me stronger.. I prefer having few friends who are real to having many false friends… I really love my friends and i give everything for them…